Timeline
Most of my work has a timeline, that revolves around my own personal narrative. This will lay things out in the correct order, if someone were to find it. This may be revealing of how far I plan things out, since you may notice most of these artworks are not yet complete. But the memory has already happened for me, and I know my own feelings and expression over each work already and have for years. Drafts for most uncompleted works are already completed, it's just a matter of having time to paint everything.
2008
(The Dark Era)Unexpected
The anguished moment displayed when I found I would become a father and have to give up scholarships.
2008
2011
(The Dark Era)Unfaithful
The loss of my first love, high school sweetheart, and first fiancee.
2011
Electrifying
A sad but electrifying moment.
2011
2012
(Hart's Desire Era)First Glance
The first time setting eyes on my second fiancee, Andrea. Set in the bar, with lilies on the shelf, her beautiful blue eyes piercing in to the viewer's soul.
2012
Shared Words
The first time sharing the words "I love you" between Andrea and I, while sitting in front of Monet's 3-piece painting in NYC.
2012
2013
(Hart's Desire Era)Hot Spring
An intimate moment of love between Andrea and I, while we sit in a hot sprint together.
2013
Izzy
Andrea and I adopt a Border Collie dog, with clear signs of previous abuse.
2013
Expecting
The previously suppressed memory of when I found out Andrea was expecting, showing the stark difference of excitement for my future daughter.
2013
Losing Grip
A figurative moment of hands losing grasp together of that dark day.
December 20th, 2013
Goodbye
The tragic death and loss of Andrea. Me squeezing her limp body in my arms, covered in blood, with terror and pain on my face.
December 20th, 2013
Broken
The aftermath and visualization of PTSD in me of December 20th. Shell shocked, sitting on bathroom floor, with Izzy resting her head on my lap for the first time ever.
December 21st, 2013
2018
(Second Hartbeat Era)Office Christmas Party
Just me, holding my friend up for a keg stand while he's wearing short-short jean cut-offs.
December, 2018
2019
(Second Hartbeat Era)You Took Care of Me
The moment I took Hallelujah woman home, from being sick at the bar. Me opening the door in to the Uber for her. The poem she wrote will pair with this piece.
2019
Night of the Red Purse
Celebrating my 29th birthday with my closest friends, Hallelujah woman by my side, red purse in hand.
September, 2019
Last Drinks
A day late from the six year anniversary of December 20th. What was secretly meant to be my last time with my closest friends, with the woman in Hallelujah sitting by my side.
December 21st, 2019
Hallelujah
A figurative and tender moment of someone that would start something in me that would lead me out of darkness and emotional suppression.
December 24th, 2019
The Dam Cracks
A loving and embracing moment between the woman in Hallelujah, with her clinging on to me tightly, while I try to fight back and hide tears. Confusion from finally feeling normal depth emotions and love again after six long cold years.
December 24th, 2019
2020
(Second Hartbeat Era)Snowfall
A moment out in the woods, carrying out my plans meant for months prior, I thought would be my last.
February 26th, 2020
Embrace
The dream I had, as I slipped away. The ghost of Andrea welcoming me with a hug.
February 26th, 2020
Boujee
A scene of a disappointed man in a business suit standing over a man knocked back on the ground in swim trunks, out in a mansion pool courtyard. Meant to represent myself kicking my roommate out.
2020
Therapy
A display of going through EMDR trauma therapy, to finally face my loss on Andrea. Taking the advice from Hallelujah woman.
2020
The Trek
A hiking visualization to represent my journey of 100lb weight loss, that I had gained through the six years of emotional suppression.
2020
Fruitcake Delivery
A display of my absurd humor, gone wrong. Me dropping off 30 boxes of fruitcake, to fulfill my threat of too much fruitcake to handle, after wrongfully trying to force my friend to talk about the pain of losing the man in her poem.
December 22nd, 2020
2021
(Escaping Era)One Last Walk With Izzy
A last walk with my faithful canine companion.
July 1st, 2021
Young Money
A reflection in the height of my professional career.
2021
Escape
A symbolic painting of my journey to move to Germany.
2021
2022
(Escaping Era)Fear
An overreaction to a clown performing at a circus.
2022
Circus Act
A clown stands trial for being a menace to society.
May 20th, 2022
Clown In A Two Piece
A clown prosecutes in a courtroom.
May 20th, 2022
Guilty
A clown sitting confined in jail.
May 22nd, 2022
Defeat
The moment I could not compete in the USTA Nationals.
October 7th, 2022
Honeydew Trash
Like Bojack Horseman, I just really hate Honeydew. A painting of a dog eating cantaloupe from the trash.
2022
2023
(Recovery Era)Dove
My disappointment looking onward at a Pigeon under a street light.
2023
2024
(Recovery Era)Rehabilitated
A clown stands rehabilitated, lost, no longer allowed to return to the circus.
2024
Witnessing Escape
An old man, my first collector, looks on at the scene of Escape.
2024
The Artist's Assistant
My cat sits next to me while I paint.
May 28th, 2024
Okay Now
A dear old friend wishing me farewell for a trip.
September 5th, 2024
Avalanche Lilies
Revisiting the view of lilies I always wanted to share with Andrea.
2024
2025
(Recovery Era)Patina Leather Shoes
Sometimes you may step in dog shit with your nice dress shoes, and you just have to shake it off. Literally a painting of patinaed leather shoes stepping in dog poo.
February 20th, 2025